Project Serve

been a long time since i could say hi to caoqi in school.. but all the saying is very rushed.. like just walk past and hi bye.. how’s ur knee.. etc.. she tried to tell me about her family again today.. but dun tink i’m supposed to listen.. part of me also cant be bothered.. but another part also hope to know more and say some words of wisdom.. eh.. super geh kiang lor.. 

felt like today really been thinking of her.. felt so wrong and in the end went to the word of God.. powerful words to remind me to make him the focus once again.. 

gave away my vienna orchestra concert ticket to u guessed who! felt abit like… ahhhhhhhh… i dunno if my reasoning is really what i think… but here’s why.. i reckoned that it will be more beneficial to her than me since i usually fall asleep during noon recitals.. somehow she needs it more also since she’s going to leave for maybe america soon and needs more of such exposure for her musical knowledge.. i’m still struggling with rothman and levenson so.. can take my time ba.. if God wills, i will still have another chance to go vienna phil.. what is vienna compared to God almighty anyway?

i wonder if i can stop the urge to want to see her everyday in school or at the bus stopS. i wonder why God allowed me to see her today… but this can’t go on.. if not it will only suck more and more of my emotions.. 

i thank God for great percussion friends.. yunfei, akari, crystal.. had dinner together and it was just so fun.. haha.. God always provides.. always.. even if i have to eat alone.. even if it means eating alone.. because wad grace it is to be able to eat!

wad grace… amazing grace thats it… God of grace

and the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered for a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To Him be the power for ever and ever. Amen. 1 peter 5:10-11

save me everyday God…

derrick