my mouth is opened!
I want to really thank Almighty God today for providing so much! He provided me with the mouth to speak today! I’m very sure that i couldn’t have done what i did today at street e by myself.. where did the courage come from? where did the words and wisdom to react come from? surely that must have come from the Lord.. when i look back at what happened, i can only praise the Lord.. finally i know that street e is something that i can be joyful about, that i can really experience this honour to serve God in his kingdom thru a very real way.. o wad joy! may God continue to mould me into his faithful servant..
got my allowance today from sulian.. thank God.. i just want to give my mother part of it as soon as i got home but she was asleep liao.. went to jingwen’s grandpa’s wake service today.. once again reminded by the pastor that real satisfaction can only be found in Lord Jesus Christ.. and that Jesus is the way the truth and the life, no one goes to the Father except thru Him… got the opportunity to talk to jingwen today.. din noe she’s so talkative and cheery.. maybe she never really joins us in yf and stuff.. din even noe she’s already in srjc doing year 2 now! suddenly thought of winnie and her sharing of her area ministry.. think might wanna ask winnie to get to know jingwen.. haha..
today during chien choong’s very interesting “ppt” show, i tink one thing that got me thinking was am i like saul who runs away from responsibility? maybe i wun hide in a baggage and wait for people to pull me out, but the security issue.. how do i feel before i enter somewhere new in my life?
i remember when i first entered guards, the feeling from sian actually turned to fear.. i remembered encik shouting and i was very scared.. i just felt very insecure.. actually.. bmt also lar.. and even tjc.. that insecurity was also the kind of thing saul faced before he became king.. and that eventually led to alot of problems during his reign.. zebedee told us that even before we enter something new like uni, we must be very sure that we will not defile ourselves, and be sure not to do delibrately do something we noe will displease God.. that, can start off with having security that God is having the control of every aspect.. its still a little bit hard to grasp now.. i still dun really noe how to equip myself for it but the rough idea is there.. zhen long’s question was.. how to deal with these kind of insecure thoughts when they come in uni? so the ideal answer is finding security in God alone.. its still abit abstract.. may the LORD open the eyes of my heart.. i tink it wasn’t by chance that i got “Saul, the man”
shall continue to read the book from randy..”making decisions by the book”
